FALTER

I'm unsure.

I wasn't prepared for such thing.

Though for others it’s just trivial.

But to me, it really is something..

How to put it..

I just feel that..

I wasn't cut with things as dazzling.
I've lost my composure.

It's inconvenient.

Accepting someone.

Comprehend and love them.

With wholeheartedly.

I tried to avoid partially.

So far I thought I've succeeded.

But there's no way I can always dodge it.

I must to face it someday.

Yes, it calls love.

I share love for my surroundings.

Anyone I care about and loves me back.

Love are meaningful and priceless.

Yet so maze to me.

-erucain-

INSECURITY

i won't interfere my life

with all my artificial delusion

so that i easily given up

even before i started to

i have bunch of dream

i wish to reach them

but it won't get through

only if i take a move to achieve it

this pain, this wound

i endured it, i suffered a lot

but i'm just passed by

i didn't get to learn a piece

somehow, i make a cliche

just to cover my mind

as i walk on the right path

but i blindfold the real me

this tears let the way

being honest yet meaningful

stand to lead over my life

till i drown out my breath

-erucain-

VACANT SIDE

my heart feels tighten

slowly split into pieces

the one i longed since forever

that smile belonged to other

my mind goes blank

honestly tell myself this a real

but i find it hopeless

thus no more light to share

echoing all over my head

somehow it weaken

controlled this sight to fell

deep inside till i cant wake

these countless tears

won't them comforted me?

swept this pain away

softly glance over me

if only i could get away

it might not unwieldy as this

perfectly knitted this feeling

keep on walking by pathetic ways

-erucain-

MY PAINT

when i start to draw my world

blue sky meets my mind

the dusk smiled a bit

gently sway my painting

i sat down, but my hand dancing

scratch the ink on my canvas sheet

staring straight over the lake

so dazzled by the reflection of light

i interrupt my mind

i'm amazed by this flawless view

as if they're joking cheerfully

somehow winked slightly

i can do nothing but smile

reply to blink and can't help but paint

i organize them wholeheartedly

now my canvas looks colorful

i don't care my appearances

it's paint all over my body

but my whole heart are full with joy

countless happiness to painted them

it wordless, but it expresses over the smile

way to go, my priceless time

-erucain-

BALANCE

when i looked at the sky
clouds smile and sulk
wind seemed a little laugh
gently stroking the leaves

i occasionally peek
looking flower that blooms
as they exchanged jokes
like a girl with flushed cheeks

i stopped at the edge of lake
i saw a reflection on the water
the fish seems to dance
they are very excited

i continue walking
looking around
noisy, other side quiet
i felt a real life

many things i lead
sometimes i learn it too
left with a balanced
so peaceful around me

-erucain-

HATRED

could you explain?

a feeling of tightness

bind tightly and can't took off

chained in the soul

have you ever felt?

sense of burden

looming over you

so you want to get rid of

in your heart, far away

is there any sense of hatred that can't be revealed?

so that makes you stay in quiet

alone, no longer dreams you imagine

dark only to be your companion

gently caress you

force you to stay

once again, move away in silence

didn't you feel tired?

waiting for someone held out a hand

with a warm embrace

while gently whispering

"you are not alone,

cry out, release your pain"

-erucain-

SILENT WOUND

i wept in the corner

no one try to find and saved me

neither did myself

till it swollen and pain enough, but

i crawled slowly

looking for a beam of light

however, i was unable to open up this eyes

haltingly, trying to move on

right after my scent fade away

with the piece of a dark broken wing

i won't regret no more

it'd pain so much

my deepest wound will fly away

by wind that softly blows

they knew my suffer

and would always dress my wounds

this time for sure

i'll knit my longing journey

with warm air surround me

look at the sky await me and say

"come and find your blissfulness"

-erucain-